Writing this book has been an incredible experience for me. It all started two years ago when I felt like something was telling me that I need to write this. At that time I was pursuing a different career and didn't even know where to start with this book. I admit, I have had a beautiful, but hard life. I wanted to take the feelings that I felt when I went through the experiences I went through and intermix it with my own spiritual experiences, creating a fantasy world.
Sitting in front of an empty screen, I didn't know where to begin. I wondered quietly to myself, "How am I going to start this?" Honestly, I felt lost.
Finally, I just started writing whatever came into my mind. I thought about my character, Anna. Who is Anna? I thought to myself. What is happening to her?
I wanted to write a book about feeling loss. I lost someone that I loved very dearly, not to cancer, but to someone brutally attacking them. I watched everything I loved about him, slowly vanish away, until the only thing that was left was a shell of what he used to be. I wanted to write a book about how it felt like to be an outcast and have trouble trusting anyone because life had hardened me. I wanted to write a book about how guilt and depression feels. Lastly, I wanted to write a book with strong meaning hidden throughout it.
I wrote this book using I's (for the main character) and not her and she's because I want you as a reader to be like, "That is me. That is how I feel."
I dedicated this book to anyone that feels alone. The reason why I wrote this was for you. It was to let all of you know, you are not alone.
You will realize the first book is very dark. We all go through dark times. For me, my dark time lasted years. I felt like I couldn't get a break and that nothing seemed to go right. There were times where I felt so overwhelmed that all I could do is sit on my floor and pray.
I want you to know, my fellow reader, that I may not know you personally, but you are not alone. There is hope. It will get better and I speak from personal experience. Remember what I wrote in the book.... LOOK AT THE STARS!!!! When all you see is darkness, do what I did when I was at my lowest... look up at the night sky... as long as there is light, there is hope.
If you feel like no one loves you, please know that is not true. I took two years to write this book and dedicated it to you. That is my action of love.
